You can see it in her eyes

I make the effort

my voice is worn dry

that no sound can escape

you’ve got me feeling pathetic

asking myself how I could deserve this

ive done nothing but care

and yet in return

I get pushed to the side

suddenly you’ve made me a memory

when I heard we would never drift apart

I guess I should have known from the start

this is all familiar to me

why am I left so easily?

you smile, but I know its forced. along with your laugh, it isn’t the same. why is it whenever someone goes away like that they change, or is it just the people I know? just the people I am most close with. or just me.

Your eyes are worn, you cry and you don’t know why. Unless you aren’t telling me something, but I know you are in a dark place. It isn’t your fault, who knows why this happened. I cant take seeing you  miserable anymore, I care to much and its hurting me more than you think. you don’t realize what its doing to me. I just want to help you, but you aren’t seeing how hard I am trying.

your look is blank. your face is flushed and your voice is quieter than ever.

using excuses to not hang out. you have been “sick” for the past few weeks ive seen you. are you really sick? im beginning to think you are but not in the cold/virus kind of way.

something has happened to your mind, to your heart. and as your best friend im trying to find you again.

I hope things turn around, and you get better.

Last year you would have been here with me

Sometimes change isnt all that great.